can you hear my voice?

Well, there is this song played on episode 4 of Saiyuki Reload (the one when Ranpa died), and I can't get it out from my head!! It's frustating actually, because I've searched the whole internet and still couldn't find it. I'm also searching for its piano sheet, which is more difficult to find...T.T
Anyone has it?? *bright eyes*

Maybe I should't think about it..

By the way, I'm up at fanfiction.net. But I haven't post anything yet ^^
I'll tell the details later (after I post something, cause it's embarassing xD)